Dear Sonji,
In order for you to progress, you need to consistently put the 'good' that you desire out into your environment. You need to continue to make the same sacrifices as before, but now, it's just for you. Everyone and everything associated with you will fall into place OR fall off.
However, you must remember: Just because you hold someone dear to your heart, don't do it for reciprocation, just love.
2020 was spent absorbing, taking in knowledge, beginning to live more freely, removing hypocrisies and distractions, and walking away from burdens. As I often tell my children, all burdens aren't yours to bear.
Now 2 months in to this new year, you have the NERVE to question whether this journey was a mistake.
Was it all a dream?
Yes!
But, Sonji, your dreams turned into goals and those goals are creating your reality.
See, when, you began writing this, your thoughts were full of negativity, tons of self- doubt.
But, since you have been working on healing yourself, you KNOW the power in your written word, your confirmation of your goals.
Your life or situation is never as bad as it seems.
So, dry those tears- again.
Hold your head up.
Pull those shoulders back.
Breathe.
Let Grandma's voice resonate "this too shall pass" and just be free.
Signed,
Me, You, Us
P.S. Love is an action, a verb.
It has to be done, it can't just "be".